First I must record my motivation for such a deep dive into my past relationship.  I miss the deep admiration and complete esteem that I felt.  I miss the desire for servitude.  I love SG so please don���t take this wrong.  He is a wonderful man and a good friend.  SG is like me; a growing person discovering His freedom.  He is a strong protector and a caring friend.  We work well together.  I feel that he needs and wants me as much as I need Him.  We want to grow together.  So the decision is made and my life moves on but like every spoiled child, just because you gave me a new toy it doesn���t mean I���ll give up my old one.  You can play with it but it���s still mine right.  This memory is mine and I want to share it.  It helps me live it and celebrate it.  And move on.

I am on my hands and knees crawling down the hall in a skimpy little outfit that swings and sways when I move.  Its fun but I feel like an idiot.  I must really look desperate and pathetic especially given that I���m trying to hang on to my large purse in teeth.  I am laughing at myself as He opens the door.  I enter the room.  He shuts the door behind me and lifts me to my feet.  He reaches for my crotch and quickly presses against the soft indentation in my jeans.  He pulls me towards Him by my pussy.  'Being my little dog makes you wet.  Doesn't it slut you like being my dog.'

'Yes Sir.  i love being Your dog Sir.' and with this He grabs my hair at the base of my skull, bends back my neck and deeply kisses me.  His kiss is firm and passionate.  His hand slides down to my breast and pulls on my nipple.  He squeezes my nipple hard through my halter.  My knees buckle with the pain and i realize that He has not released the grip on my pussy.  He reminds me with lift and squeeze and with a raspy whisper looks me in the eye and says 'cum my little bitch.'

I sigh as i feel the moisture spread in my crotch against the warmth of His hand.  He releases the grip on my nipple.  'That���s my good slut'

'Yes Sir.  Your slut always.'

'Take off those pants and dance for Daddy, my little slut.'  He sits down in the big recliner as i remove my pants and reveal my g-string.

I play some Buckcherry and get lost in the music.  Shaking my boobs and trying to seduce without concentrating too hard on it.  I want to lose myself in the music and have fun.  ���Bounce those big tits for me girl���

I see Him unzip His pants to release the restraint on His erection.  I am so pleased that I am able to arouse Him.  I bounce my shoulders around to sway my breasts all over and feel a moist attachment to my g-string.  ���Take those breasts out and let me see my nipples���

I bend down and lift my breasts from the halter of my top and swing them around as my face is just a foot or so away from His cock.  I am fixated on His cock.  I watch His hand casually, slowly stroking His cock.  I dance and throw my hair around.  I love this beat and am very turned on seeing His erection.

���Take the rest of your clothes of slut���

I get a bit self conscious thinking of my weight but His eyes twinkle when He sees me.  ���I like the way you dance for me my slut���

I keep dancing as I pull the top over my head.  I slide my g-string down my legs and as I���m stepping out of the last leg, He stands up from His chair.  His hand stops my head from rising.  ���On your knees girl���

I kneel with my hands behind my back my mouth open.  I think I am ready.  I close my eyes and feel my hair being grabbed at the top of my skull and my head pulled forward.  I almost lose my balance off my knees but manage to step forward just as His cock pushes into my mouth.  I let my tongue explore the smooth tight skin while I recover my breath and then tighten my lips to squeeze on the shaft of the cock thrusting into my throat.  I feel the gag reflex and spittle come up as the head parts the tight restriction and continues down my throat.  I concentrate on breathing and then relax and feel the cock as though it were continuing through my body down to my cunt.  Just as I am feeling the desire to cum I am told ���Do not cum yet my cock sucking little whore.  I am going to watch.���

He pulls my head from His cock and lifts me back to a standing position then returns with His wet cock to His chair.  I am fixated once again.  ���Spread your legs and cum now��� He says and fluids flow down my thighs, past my ankles, onto my feet and the carpet below.  I hang my head in a bit of shame for being so unclean.

'That's a good slut but I think you got my shoes a bit wet.'

I drop to the floor and lick His shoes clean and ask for permission to remove them.  He grants it.  I pull off His boots and remove His socks and admire His clean habits.  His feet are clean.  His toenails well trimmed.  I ask if i may kiss them and He again grants me my wish.  I softly kiss His toes and lick my tongue along the top of His foot gently swirly along the sides.  I work my way to each toe and take them into my mouth with a gentle suck.  When i get to the big toe i become aroused and begin to suck harder.  I run my tongue around in circles as i pump my lips up and down His big toe.  'Mmmm that���s my good slut.  Is that going to make my little slut cum?'

Slurping greedily i slow up enough to hum a positive answer as He slides His other naked foot between my fleshy thighs.  His toes part the lips my wet cunt.  Then i press His toes inside me.  I rock between the foot in my pussy and the one in my mouth.  My body is electrified with sexual tension as i feel my orgasm building.  I rock on mindlessly building a fury until i lift my mouth to beg 'please Sir may i cum now?'

'Already, my slut, just from sucking on my toes?  Does sucking my toes make a dirty little whore like you want to cum?'

I am sorry i waited so long to ask.  I knew permission would not come swiftly.  'Yes Sir PLEEEAASE.  I really NNNNEEED to Cum.'

'Oh my pussy needs to cum.' He chuckles.  'I think it can wait a little longer'

Tears run down my face and i have taken as much of His foot into my mouth as i can fit.  Three, four, almost all five toes.  The big toe is pushing down my throat and my foamy drool has started to run out of my mouth.  I slurp and suck it back.  The toes in my pussy are hot and i want so bad to cool the fire with my cum.  I am far into a silent zone when the word breaks through...  'Cum' 

My body responds.  I arch and moan as my muscles contract with the initial shock of the orgasm.  I feel like such a dirty slut to cum so hard from just feet but yet there i am having wave after wave of orgasm.

As my body tires and slows, He lowers His foot.  The one in my mouth had slipped away as soon as my orgasm began but i had barely been aware of it.  I look up shyly, and receive a warm appreciative smile.  'That���s my good little cum slut'

He lays my back on the bed and lifts my feet.  I lay panting with my knees spread.  I hear a slight rummaging.  The whir of a large vibrator grows closer and I see the devious twinkle.  He places the vibrator directly on my clitoris and immediately I begin to squirm.  I feel Him part my lips and press until they give way.  The vibrator enters my pussy and is withdrawn.  He pushes in again and again, deeper with each stroke.  I am swollen with fluid and ready to burst.  My hips thrust and buck.  I am biting my lip in concentration.  The stimulus is intense so soon after my orgasm.  I stare at Him hoping for quick permission to cum again.

'No slut.  No yet.' He sternly reminds me.  Then i feel a pushing on my ass.  'Roll over now my slut.  Present that ass.'

My head goes back as my hair is pulled again.  I smell lube and make sure my back is arched, my legs parted.  The cold gel touching my sphincter causes me to pucker and pull away but grip on hair gets tighter and pulls my head back.  I feel a rough finger enter my ass and the vibrator press its way inside me.  'Is this how my dirty little pig wants to get fucked?  I bet you'd like a big cock in your mouth too.  Would you like that you whore?  Three cocks inside you.'

'Yes Sir, if that pleases you Sir.'

He drags me around to face a large suction based dildo pressed to the small dresser beside the bed.  Then replaces the vibrator that fell from my pussy.  I place my mouth on the silicone cock, feel the large vibrator deep in my pussy, then larger than a finger i feel a pressure on my ass.  I groan around the sparkly pink cock.  My pussy and ass are full.  My mouth is loose around the dildo but i am gagging and drooling all the same. 

'I should go to the bar and get some real cock for my slut shouldn't I'

I nod my head yes and mumble an affirmative 'uh huh'.  I feel the rhythm of the dildos in my pussy and ass syncing and my mouth follows the beat.  Deeper and deeper i slide the foul tasting cock into my throat.  I am gliding off into subspace as His hand cracks hard on my ass.

���Don���t drop those.  Keep my holes filled.���  I hear a bit more rummaging and spy the red tendrils of the flogger as they begin their flight.  The sting across my back has me soaring.  I am barely able to hold onto the dildos as I watch the muscles flexing in His arms and feel the vibrating sting as it courses through my body.  I am aware of it all but i am high.  It is all surreal.

'Cum now my slut' and a crack brings a new sting across my ass.  I squeeze hard and feel the resistance of the dildos in my backside.  The one in my ass drops first, and then the fluid begins to poor around the second.  I lift my drooling mouth from the third and gasp for air as the second dildo is removed and the remainder of my cum trickles down my thighs.

I feel His fingers gently stroke the hot surface of my ass until the waves subside.  'Lay down a moment and rest my little cum slut'.

He holds me on bed until my dizziness subsides.  He kisses me again and tells me how much He loves His cum slut.  He strokes my hair and as my head rests on His soft tummy.  I look to His cock and begin to breathe heavily on it.  I want to make it hard again.  I want to Him to have His pleasure too.  I want to taste His cum.

'May i suck Your cock Master?'

'Aren't you done you little whore?'

'I would like to please You Sir.  I would like to taste Your cum if it���s ok Sir'

He pushes my head to His cock grabbing my hair and controlling the rhythm.  I feel His cock growing inside my mouth, pushing hard and angry on my throat.  I gag and throw up a bit but fight to keep it down as His hands push harder on my head.  As i gag again He lifts my head leaving a spit connection from my mouth to His cock.  I see the pleasure in His face.

I know this foam spit pleases Him.  He rolls me back and spreads my knees.  He compliments me on my clean shave and His face half disappears below my mound.

Immediately my hips are launched off the bed as He sucks and chews on my pussy and clit.  I am loud and know that this pleases Him but I am embarrassed again as i think of those who may overhear.  'Oh Master please may i cum'

I know to start early this time.  But it is no help.  My please are ignored and soon i taste the blood of my lip and realize i have bitten through a bit.  'Oh Sir please please i don���t know if i can hold it'

He lifts His face and climbs toward me.  His hard cock presses inside me and pumps me deep and fast.  I am no longer exaggerating my screams for His pleasure.  I am now in desperate agony to cum.  But He won't allow it.  Instead He has me climb on top and ride Him.  Here His cock thrusts deep inside me.  He grabs hold of my nipples hard tells me that now i may cum.  It���s good that I have permission because as soon as He grabbed my nipples cum had begun to flow beyond my control.  As i pump cum from my hot swollen cunt i feel His cock thrust deep.  I feel His cum.  I see His cum face before me.  I feel hot cum all around my ass and thighs.  I fall forward and He kisses me.  I feel His arms around me and i want to stay be there always; His cock inside me and His arms around me.

'You my good slut always.'

'Yes Sir.  I will always be Your slut.'

We rest a moment and then i slide from His cock and begin to lick him clean.  I slurp the cum from His hairy belly, from His pubic hair, His balls and i ever so gently take His cock in my mouth and let it lie there until i feel the slow swelling.

I wake to a mild snore and feel a soft cock in my mouth.  My stirring awakens Him and He strokes my hair.  He bunches His fist and i take the queue and begin to stroke His cock with my mouth.  I feel it grow and soon He is pushing hard with both hands.  I know He is going to cum by the passion in His grip on my head.  I am nearly suffocating from His cock thrusting down my throat but my pussy is wet and tingling with the anticipation of tasting His cum.  I want to taste it.  I want to keep choking on His cock.  I want Him to be pleased by me.  I feel the telling thrust and taste His cum in my throat.  A slight withdraw fills my mouth.  I dare not swallow.  I suck to get every drop until my head is pulled away and I see Him looking at my face.  I open my mouth and show Him His cum and He smiles. 

'Ah that���s a good girl my cum slut' and nods to indicate that i may now savor and swallow my reward.

He lies back down so I ask if I may lay at His feet awhile.  He responds that just for a while because we must go to dinner and He does have to pee.

I lie down and take advantage of the rest.  Soon He is directing me to the shower and down on my knees.  I open my mouth and take in His cock.  The warm urine flows fast into my mouth and i swallow gulp after gulp remembering to breathe though my nose.  Soon i begin to gag badly as i feel the warmth hit my stomach and my repulsion overcomes my servitude but i struggle to continue.  Master withdraws though and instead lets the remainder of His stream cover my face.  I like at the steam and marvel at the beauty of the golden liquid flowing from the tip of His penis.  Once it stops He turns on the water and baths me.  He washes my body with soap.  I wash His body with soap.  I love Him.

He towels me off and we dress for dinner.  He has me wear my dirty cum soaked panties.

I wonder if the waiter or others in the restaurant can tell what a dirty pig I've been or if they just think my glow is due to love.  I wonder if Master has brought many other women to this restaurant.  I wonder if I'll ever feel relaxed around Him.  He still makes me feel so nervous and intimidated and yet i am in awe of Him.

Funny how life goes on and soon you���re eating ice cream with someone new.  You know that life will never be the same.  The happiness you once had is gone but a new path opens up, a new adventure.  I always want to bring my past with me.  I want my past and my future to walk side by side.

I don't want to lose any love that was found.  But life doesn���t seem to work that way.  Our journey marches forward not in circular paths.  We find our lives in front of us.