Frustration and hope..

posted Jun 28, 2011 | views: 294 | Tags: d/s relationship
Finding the proper level of control, freedom, and respect in a D/s relationship is really about listening, learning, and adjusting.
As a sub, I want to receive your goal, direction or a vision and then work out the strategy of how I will implement and deliver that to him.  I hope to be appreciated and admired for my cleverness and intelligence while still serving. 
I want to help you build a life for us.  I want you to lead.  You don't need to control my every action.. just give the chance to serve you.  Let me know your desires.  Hopefully you will enjoy my service and allow me to enjoy serving you.
I want you to know me.  I want you to know how I react to things and play me on that.  I mean both sexually and in everyday situations.  I want to be an instrument.  I want to show you how well I can perform when you play me.
I want to admire you as you admire me. I love looking up to you.
 
I want you to assert your dominance and punish me if I don't respect it.  Show me that it is something that you take it seriously.
I know we have the love, respect, honor, and intelligence to go forward.  I know that it is in your nature to be dominant.  
Please know that I need that from you and I will love you even more for it.
Also know that I do understand changes do not happen overnight.  But, I am and always will be the impatient one who would rather leap into a mistake than stand still and do nothing.  At least I'll learn from a mistake.


Comments

  • Me-Myself&I said Jun 28, 2011...
    hmmm?
  • sg138 said Jul 12, 2011...
    I can feel what you want and I am doing my best to grow as a Domminate and pradner. I will get there with you, but not for you, but for me .  
  • DaddysLittleSlut said Aug 4, 2011...
    Ever since you said to me "You can leave if you want but I have a right to take as much time as I need."   I've felt a new power in you.  Whether it is my perception or your confidence, I like it. I'm starting to understand your style.  Its taking me such a long time.  My past experience was much less subtle.  But, I realize that it is my place to follow, not to lead.  I have such a difficult time with that. In the past, I found someone with a new outlook that excited me, thrilled me to my core, made me feel confident and loved.  I realize now that what you are doing is not the same.  You are looking to establish a life together, a partnership, and a style that was custom made for our entire life not just secret corners of it.  I wasn't looking for that.  I didn't think I needed it.  I'm beginning to understand that both of you feel/felt that I do and that you are right. I am more stable now.  Without having to fight opposing forces within myself - the slut, the whore, the corporate woman, the daughter, the social girl - I am not at odds with myself.  And, I can see that you want all of me. That scares me.  I'm not sure I'm worthy of this kind of love.  I have been selfish and looking only to please the slut.  Complaining that my cunt was wet all the time while meanwhile, you were looking out for the whole of me.  I feel ashamed and embarassed.  I feel I have done you a great diservice.  I will follow.  I will be patient.  I will remember who I am.
  • sehnen said Aug 28, 2011...
    just want you to know that I just found a comment you left me two years ago. I had so little computer time then that I never found it. It was a very kind comment, and I've answered it now. I appreciate your words of understanding.
  • Girlygirl said Sep 17, 2011...
    I think this post was an excellent demonstration of yourself hun...I so hope things worked out for you the way you hoped. Your bravery and depth in this are a true inspiration to to me...and your Sirs response...well I sincerely hope it goes as you think it will..I can feel the love and hope between the two of you. (hugs)
  • Girlygirl said Sep 17, 2011...
    I think this post was an excellent demonstration of yourself hun...I so hope things worked out for you the way you hoped. Your bravery and depth in this are a true inspiration to to me...and your Sirs response...well I sincerely hope it goes as you think it will..I can feel the love and hope between the two of you. (hugs)
  • Girlygirl said Sep 17, 2011...
    I think this post was an excellent demonstration of yourself hun...I so hope things worked out for you the way you hoped. Your bravery and depth in this are a true inspiration to to me...and your Sirs response...well I sincerely hope it goes as you think it will..I can feel the love and hope between the two of you. (hugs)
  • Girlygirl said Sep 17, 2011...
    oops..sorry it didn't go through so I clicked the button a second time..lol..lesson learned

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